Megiddo

by lauren hoffman

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about

my first album, released in 1997 on Virgin Records. i was a teenager when i wrote these songs. during the process of recording i went from a kid writing songs in my bedroom at my mom's house, to a major-label recording artist flying to LA and paris to play shows! it was a wild, heady time. i got to work with amazing musicians and producers like david lowery and john morand, ethan johns and jon brion. i learned so much so fast.

it ultimately ended in disappointment because after a huge build-up, the label went through restructuring right before Megiddo came out, and it was basically shelved with no promotion. there was one girl in the publicity department who was in charge of indie and college press, and she championed the record; it got great reviews. and in france, the virgin office there liked it too and made a little hit out of it! so i enjoyed a very warm welcome over there. that was definitely the highlight of the whole experience.

credits

released June 20, 1997

produced by david lowery and john morand
mixed by ethan johns

all songs by lauren hoffman

recorded at sound of music, richmond, va
mixed at sunset sound factory, hollywood, ca

'lolita' produced by ethan johns, recorded at audities, burbank, ca.
additional recording by ethan johns on 'blood', 'rock star', 'fall away', 'cold and grey', 'build a home', and 'the ashram song'

assistant engineers: richard hasel, brian kehew, brian soucy, and joe zook

mastered by doug sax at the mastering lab

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lauren hoffman Charlottesville, Virginia

Lauren's albums include her slinky, sexy, and sardonic debut "Megiddo", the raw, acoustic "From the Blue House", beautifully tragic "Choreography", and most recently, the more upbeat and sweet "Interplanetary Traveler".

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Track Name: Blood
she's got a window
it's got a small frame
she's got a view
of what she always sees
what she believes is there
but there's blood in the basement
blood in the alley
there's blood on her hands she can't see

he's got mirror
a crack in his door
he peers through to see
the world is ugly
but there's nothing he can do about it

the hole in the roof
these crumbling walls
this house is falling apart
there's nothing we can do
nothing we can do

if there's blood in the basement
blood in the alley
there's blood on our hands
we can't see

no i can't see
no it's not safe
and no i'm not proud of this blood

there's heat in my mouth
there's blood in my veins
my love
Track Name: Rock Star
they put a shrine for you in rolling stone
and sixteen servants weeping at your throne
yeah and I love you ten times more dead than alive
i want to hold your kid and make love to your wife

i want to be a rock star too yeah
i want to be a rock star just like you

i'm never gonna see you old or see you wise
forever young as jesus crucified
i want to put my mouth on you and make you breathe
open up wide and sing for me

i want to be a rock star too yeah
i want to be a rock star just like
i want to be a rock star too yeah
i want to be a rock star just like you

fame, i'm gonna live forever
Track Name: Lolita
burning, still faithful
and smoking cigarettes he falters
yearning, or one taste-ful
soft brown skin, cool water

he said 'i'll keep you clean '
he said 'i'll feed you my sweet, lolita'
he said 'don't ever fear for,
i'll be ever near my, lolita'

turning to danger
and taken in by lovely strangers
my thirsty little angel
are you sleeping in the devil's manger?

he said 'i'll keep you clean '
he said 'i'll feed you my sweet, lolita'
he said 'don't ever fear for,
i'll be ever near my, lolita'

she's sleeping, so peaceful
she's everything, she's everything,
but she's awaking and my heart's breaking
she's taking all her pretty things away.

he said 'i'll keep you clean '
he said 'i'll feed you my sweet, lolita'
he said 'don't ever fear for,
i'll be ever near my, lolita'
Track Name: Fall Away
i fell and felt the wind outside
and i didn't have a thing to say
the moon and the stars released the sky
and i watched them fall away

i called on gods to light my way
and they whispered softly in my mind
and still I praise the dawn of day
when they crawl and fall behind

i heard the warning of the sun
remember all the days i strayed, i found you
the moon fell down and made no sound
watch her fall away

where's my mind i lost it too
and you put my love away
i lifted all my thoughts and flew
and you watched me fall away
and you watched me fall away

i heard the warning of the sun
remember all the days i strayed, i found you
the moon fell down and made no sound
watch her fall away
Track Name: Cold and Grey
silver daisy
life drawn still
mister's gone crazy
he's out on the windowsill

pick for him flowers
red as blood
mean as he scowls
he's soft as mud

this is the longest night
and it's dark all day like old cold and grey
well maybe i'll meet him one day

peaceful stone-mad
you terribly alone man
were you a bad-to-the-bone man
or just never quite grown, man

you were no wonderful man to me
were you ever good?
you were no wonderful man to me

is it just loss of will that makes it better to me still
and rotten away like old cold and grey?
well maybe i'll meet him one day
Track Name: Hope You Don't Mind
not so long ago i was a little thing with dolls and stars and dreams
not so long ago I didn't know much of anything but love, love, love

yeah, momma don't go away and daddy come home
i'll be waiting in the backyard with my high-heels on
tell me a story about a girl and a shoe
while I'm waiting for my dream to come true

yeah daddy won't you tell me what it means to be alive
i've got blood and bones and love and guts and things I can't describe
daddy always shot it straight
he said "girl don't you know?
we've got to try and find ourselves some peace
before we all go and

i hope you don't mind
he world's fucked up and we're all gonna
i hope you don't mind the world's fucked up
and we're all gonna die"

i love the way the sun goes round and lights up the moon
i love a lazy morning when I sleep well past noon
i love it when we kiss all day we roll around all night
i love it when the moon peeks in and hits your eyes just right
it's just right but

i hope you don't mind
the world's fucked up and we're all gonna
i hope you don't mind the world's fucked up
and we're all gonna die
Track Name: Strange Man
the room is spinning
and I feel dizzy like a rat trapped
on one of those things that goes round and round and round

all I can see are neon lights
and the silhouette of man
he's sitting to my right
his hand is on my knee
his hand is on my thigh
his hand is on my arm
his hands are covering my eyes

the boom, boom of the bass drum
is like the thudding of my blood
it's mixing with re wine and nicotine
it's pumping through my heart like mud
his eyes are closed
his mouth is open
his eyes are closed
his mouth is open

i don't remember what he looks like
but he smells like a man and marlboro reds
his face is coming closer
his fingers on my chin
he smells like whiskey
he smells like sin

and now it's over
and i know exactly where I am
in a familiar bed
with a strange, strange man
i'd seen him around before
and i said, "i'll see you around, man'
Track Name: Persephone
man walk beside me
in shadows sidelong glance
never dead-on stare
for your razor-tease, my arms are bare
persephone
teeth sting sweet and eyes closed
in the love of blood

stupor of a quaalude dream
ride tequila acid wave
hold my hand in powder-stream to get me through
mortality alone or eternity with you
persephone

and if you kiss me forever
if you kiss me with your forever lips
if you kiss me forever
i'll be forever yours, persephone
Track Name: Alive
i came in bloody and screaming
i came in bloody and screaming
not alone, i'm not alone

i fell down dirty and bleeding
i fell down dirty and bleeding
not alone, i'm not alone

there's something behind my sight
it's keeping me alive
it's drifing behind the light
it's keeping me alive

the devil in me, the devil's in me
i fling him to the ground and he moans
like a man

so hey angel, hey angel
lift me to your sky and teach me how to fly

there's something behind my sight
it's keeping me alive
it's drifing behind the light
it's keeping me alive

gh, my gemini, oh, my gemini, oh, my gemini.

they said 'girl be good '
they said 'girl do what we tell you you should'
but i won't hide, i won't hide
i wanna feel alive

there's something behind my sight
it's keeping me alive
it's drifing behind the light
it's keeping me alive
Track Name: The Cannibal Ed
the cannibals are out long after good kids are in bed
they're coming through the windows
and they're coming for my head.

i'm fattened up for killing season
helping god to find a reason
just to feed me quickly to
the cannibal named ed

the wintertime was long
but the warm winds are a-blowin now
and i'm looking to the sky
like an optimistic summer sow

the walls here aren't sturdy
and songs of freedom fill my head
as i befriend, the cannibal named ed

feeding time is dangerous
don't touch the beast unless you must
he's grinning through his shiny teeth
he's dreaming of his bloody feast

so try to find the safest distance
or the path of least resistance
lest you be fed to the cannibal named ed,
the cannibal named ed
Track Name: Build A Home
i need to be alone tonight
this city and her streets
a cardboard sign reads 'help me'
and I walk on
and I run

i touch you and you feel me
i'm a river, I'm burning, I'm a thief
i leave you and your skin and your beauty
i leave you and your beauty and your teeth

can you see this blaze flared up
from the spark of you
now this trick i've played makes me your slave
i'll burn you out, i'll start again.

i saw my name in your hand
i turned around and ran
but to you or from you it's all the same
to you or from you it's the same thing

he says we're all alone
he builds himself a home
he builds it out of hair and teeth and fingernails and bones
he hides it in his heart
then he tears it all apart
he plasters all the pieces up with glue and calls it art
he's a man with two left shoes
he's a pretty cockatoo
his song is full of sadness but he's beautiful in blue

and i need to be alone tonight
i need to be alone tonight.
Track Name: The Ashram Song
swami g lay your hands on me
that i might be healed
bring your light up close to me
so that i might see.

om shanti om shanti om shanti om
om shanti om shanti om shanti om

swami g i'm your devotee
won't you come to my room
i'll make sacrifices dear
get me in with god

om shanti om shanti om shanti om
om shanti om shanti om shanti om

preacher, prophet deliver me
i'm a sinful girl
can i buy back my chastity
with these rubies and pearls?

om shanti om shanti om shanti om
om shanti om shanti om shanti om