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CHOREOGRAPHIC

by Lauren Hoffman

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1.
White sheets I can't believe I'm Still asleep, still beneath He's come to rest Head and heart He's on my chest He falls so hard I'm crushed - it's what I asked for Some kind of weight to hold me down and I'm lost - I'm in his mouth Cradled by his sounds Soft light A perfect dawn A moment held, a moment gone And all day This will be my Secret place Where I can taste him Long gone, it's what I asked for Some kind of space to float around and Eyes wide, I am awake now Cursed by the freedom that I've found I'll come when you least expect it Close your eyes you won't regret this Love comes when you least expect it Warm night A silent breeze And I'm up against the wall Strong hands And hips to hold me Still I'm afraid that I will fall I'm crushed - it's what I asked for Some kind of weight to hold me down I'm lost - I'm in his mouth Cradled by his sounds I'll come when you least expect it, Close your eyes you won't regret this Love comes when you least expect it Close your eyes you won't regret this Love comes when you least expect it
2.
I spent a twisted night without sleep Wondering Where did I go wrong How did I lose you? I spend my listless life I wait here Wondering Where did I go wrong How did I lose you? There was a time when I believed in something better than this There was a time when I still dreamed All I do now is wish There was a time when I believed in something better than this There was a time when I still dreamed All I do now is wish I left the scream inside my mouth Pushed it down How did I go wrong Where did I lose you? And god knows I know I could die here Just lie here just lie here just lie here How can I go on Now that I’ve lost you? There was a time when I believed in something better than this There was a time when I still dreamed All I do now is wish There was a time when I believed in something better than this There was a time when I still dreamed All I do now is wish Dreams were made for waking and I’m making up my bed Daylight is for waiting and there’s seven hours left There was a time when I believed in something better than this There was a time when I still dreamed All I do now is wish There was a time when I believed in something better than this There was a time when I still dreamed All I do now is wish I believed I believed I believed I believed
3.
Don't wanna go where they are cruel and cold Turning me into stone, making me dry Give me this warmth, a sunbeam to live in A window to look out of... Misery blooms on the stem of suppression The world that you see is the one you believe Sleeping in poppies, lost in the forest Out of the sky, into the sea Disappear under here, pulled by the tide Give me an island, I am an island Don't wanna go where they pull out the mold Casting me out of clay, making me dry Give me this warmth, a sunbeam to live in A window to look out of... Shut out the sights And pull tight the sheets They live in the dark and their faces you see By a sliver of light, through a cracked-open door… Castles and kings await you my sweet Dragons will fly you Far, far from here Where the concrete enfolds you And they mould you of steel Out of the sky, into the sea Disappear under here, pulled by the tide Give me an island, I am an island
4.
You're a little bit damaged I'm a sucker for that I wanna take you in my hands Wanna bring you back You're a little bit damaged I'm a sucker for that I want to fill up the spaces Be everything you lack You're a little bit jaded And you're closing the door And all the you felt then You don't feel it anymore I'm the picture that's faded, I'm the love you don't trust Take the girl out from under glass And she'll always want to much I know You're just Broken I know You're just Broken You're just Broken You're a little bit damaged I'm a sucker for that So in the moment I lost you I wanted you back But that's a feeling that's faded And I'm closing the door And all that I felt then I don't feel it anymore I know You're just Broken I know You're just Broken You're just Broken You're just Broken You're just Broken You're just Broken
5.
We’re on a wire but it’s better than drowning And I don’t care if I fall 'Cause I’ve never been higher Everything's changing But I don’t care for sameness 'Cause safety makes graves Of the fearful I find A ride on a wave A home on a wind-blown cloud Make your body loud For me Could you be safe in my arms And scared at the same time Running towards and away ’Til you’re standing still The mystery’s calling Come if you dare And find what is there when you tear down the walls No you’re gonna wait til the moment is certain While I’ve been out searching for reasons to fall Hard is the ground You’re wrapping your arms around Could you be safe in my arms And scared at the same time Running towards and away ’Til you’re standing still
6.
She's never on my side She competes just for fun But I'll never win no matter how fast I run She always seems so sure But she's full of shit and she's making me like her No it doesn't matter where I go She's the one who's in control And I'll never be alone I know Oh and if you're looking for my soul She traded that old thing in years ago She doesn't let me speak to anyone else She's forcing me to live out this life by myself She's got a wicked tongue She's a bitch and she'll turn me into one No it doesn't matter where I go She's the one who's in control And I'll never be alone I know Oh and if you're looking for my soul She traded that old thing in years ago I doesn't matter where I fuckin go She's the one who's in control But if I close my eyes she'll disappear She'll still whisper in my ear It's her voice I've come to fear but she's still here Taking count and keeping score I'm the girl she can't adore If I close my eyes she'll disappear She'll still whisper in my ear It's her voice I've come to fear but she's still here Taking count and keeping score I'm the girl she can't adore If I close my eyes she'll disappear
7.
Well you don't fit in, thank god But you don't know what you've got So you try to be like them, but you're not And you're almost dead, almost dead You're almost dead And I wish I could hang out up in the sky And be the light to shine you home So I'll write another song about the darkness and how you're not alone So you try to find a hole Deep enough to lie in There's comfort in the cold, I know When you're almost dead, almost dead When you're almost dead And I wish I could hang out up in the sky And be the light to shine you home So I'll write another song about the darkness and how you're not alone
8.
Sleepwalking I'm running On automatic Like prozac girl Indifferent Nothing much matters What is this clinging to images sacred? No longer making love Just getting naked Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? As if it's all in you Hand to hold Raison d'être Romantic notion Like beautiful swimming in love like an ocean What is this clinging to images sacred? No longer making love Just getting naked Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? As if it's all in you And I've got to crawl out of this whole I've got to crawl out of this whole I've got to crawl out of this whole What is love I want to feel Something real Like a car crash When I land I will be shaken Awakened To now Like a flash In a dream of the waking world Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? Why am I still Holding on To a love gone wrong? Why am I still Holding on?
9.
Like a master of disguise in a torn-up old dress I've been hiding in plain sight and making a mess Bring me back my heart This is it I'm ready for the cure I am sick of being sick Come to my senses and Feel the things I never felt I can't pretend this is Anything but love itself So don't go tonight Stay make everything all right Like a veteran of war, haunted by day I've been trying to ignore what never goes away Visions in my head, blind as I've been Try to shut them out but they already got in Come to my senses and Feel the things I never felt I can't pretend this is Anything but love itself So don't go tonight Stay make everything all right Something in my chest, a sound I've never heard I've been living in my head, always the same words Save me from my self, this is my disease Ringing in my ears and body in deep-freeze Come to my senses and Feel the things I never felt I can't pretend this is Anything but love itself So don't go tonight Stay make everything all right
10.
You breath fire To burn the world And such teeth "The better to eat you with, my girl" You can fly Take me with you Yeah you're wild And you know not what you do I'm in love with a dragon put my hand in the flame I know I should have known better but I did it again I'm in love with a dragon it's the curse of my life to be the lover of a monster I'm his dutiful wife Since I first saw you in the sky I could feel you in my lungs Since I was a child I've had blisters on my tongue Oh yeah if you're so bad why don't you take it all Why don't you do me in finally make me fall You're a tease I'm a flirt Oh baby please Make it hurt I'm in love with a dragon put my hand in the flame I know I should have known better but I did it again I'm in love with a dragon it's the curse of my life to be the lover of a monster I'm his dutiful wife
11.
Baby put a record on I've been waiting all night long to touch you 
Standing in my pretty dress 
If you asked me I'd say yes So take it off Love, turn out the light And hold me like tomorrow might not come Fall upon my breast and let Your fever
 find its death against my skin And slowly as the summer breeze and Silent as the stars This night is ours Baby, tell me everything, with your hands
 You know we don't need words
 You talk about forever with you fingers But you know I'm already yours Already yours And slowly as the summer breeze and Silent as the stars This night is ours And sometime when I'm asleep
 You'll curl up next to me Thinking "
I know what I'm doing here" Soon the sun will come to part
 The curtains of the night, And slowly as the summer breeze and Silent as the stars This night is ours
12.
Here in the dark Dizzy from the stars that light your face The winter makes you shake Let me be the warm place 'Cause I burn with the fire of a lifetime waiting for you If nobody sees us, do we exist? Don’t ever fall in love with a solipsist. If I'm falling to pieces, can he make me whole? If nobody sees me break can I fix it on my own? You burn Through the film In shades of the sunrise And I am the moon Ablaze in the first light You burn Through the film In shades of the sunrise And I am the moon Ablaze in the first light I’ve been watching their faces I’ve seen through their eyes Wandered through places Where the desperate tell their lies And they pass like an ocean Over my skin I’ve been holding my breath for Years so they won’t get in You burn Through the film In shades of the sunrise And I am the moon Ablaze in the first light You burn Through the film In shades of the sunrise And I am the moon Ablaze in the first light Ablaze in the first light Ablaze in the first light
13.
There’s a room in my house where I stumble Over a memory There’s a light in the night and I wonder If you’ve come back for me Well it’s a little too late to say sorry But don’t be so hard on me Ghost, you know I can’t go back Come like a whisper in silence A brush on my skin A shadow that flies by door I’m wanting more Well it’s a little too late to say sorry But don’t be so hard on me Ghost, you know I can’t go back Like a song in my ear you are near me Here like a time machine Ghost you keep pulling me back If you’ve been here all the while Watching me drift by and by Waiting for something to fill me up Ghost, close your eyes I can silence the voice in my head And hear you instead Whisper and sing for me again Rise from the dead Well it’s a little too late to say sorry But don’t be so hard on me Ghost, you know I can’t go back Like a song in my ear you are near me Here like a time machine Ghost you keep pulling me back Sometimes you lose everything Or gave it away well it’s hard to say now
14.
Heartbeat that's lost in the creaking of steel Teaching and training yourself not to feel Here is what I see Human turning into machine And you're safe in those places where no-one can go Locked-up and shuttered in it's total control And I know how it feels 'Cause I lived there for years But you try and you'll see It's beautiful to be free I wasn't born with a metal breast plate You grow your protection and you learn how to hate And I'm calling the bluff I know you better You aren¹t so tough Are you inanimate Do you rely On manipulation So you'll look alive Are you automatic What turns you on Buttons and switches Or lovers and songs Lover, I've been wasting my time Riddling, puzzling, searching your eyes When all I can see It's turbines and pistons where a man used to be Am I just not getting it Is this revolution A mechanical revolution Are you dictating your final solution A mechanical revolution Am I just not getting it Is this evolution A mechanical revolution Are you dictating your final solution A mechanical revolution
15.
Whenever I fall Taking all the chances I can I put my world in your command I'm back in the dark And far from taking that path Again, to where we... Shine in the face of all that's to come Saying'My love, this song is for you' I lie in the space of daydreams gone wrong Thinking 'My love, what happened to you?' And standing up tall, taller Learning my glow Living in light I made on my own You do as you please, go be A slave to your mind All of the while, I'll be Holding this moment Remember me when we'd... Shine in the face of all that's to come Saying'My love, this song is for you' I lie in the space of daydreams gone wrong Thinking 'My love, what happened to you?' Love isn't thought, and it's not just a place to call home Love isn't pain, or a face you can own Love isn't touch, not the crutch of a shoulder to lean on You're gone, but it's not
16.
You could call it blindness But surely I just didn't want to know The reasons behind this Whatever moved me to go 'Cause if love leaves... Can you truly say it was ever love at all? I've always believed love lasts Long after we fall Now my life is simple Now I have nothing left to lose And I'm tired of living Between dreaming and the blues And if it's all an illusion Please let me see the truth I am ready for everything I am ready for you Now these rooms are empty But I know I'm not the only lonely one Well it's no consolation To know we're all yearning for someone And crossing the oceans Of differences Just to be recognized For a moment Just to feel alive And it might look like comfort But truly it's the saddest thing I know To be held by a stranger When my heart still has no home So I'll wait forever... starting now 'Cause it's better to be alone And be faithful I know you'll take me home

about

all the forks in the road, where i could have gone another way on the journey to make "choreography"
Acoustic guitar demos in Lucknow, India, with Sheer Om,
Folk-emo rock in Charlottesville VA with the Lilas,
Alt-pop production in Brooklyn NY with Ron Shaffer,
And the focused final stretch, back in Richmond VA with the Sound Of Music crew.

credits

released March 5, 2021

John Morand - Co-producer, Engineer, Programming
Lauren Hoffman - Co-producer, Vocals, Guitars, Piano, Keys, Bass
Alan Weatherhead - Recording engineer, Mix engineer, Guitars, Keyboards, Pedal Steel
Miguel Urbiztondo-Rodriguez - Drums
Sheer Om Rosenzweig - Engineer, Accordion, Keyboards
Ron A Shaffer - Co-producer, Engineer, Programming
Timo Ellis - Guitars, Bass
Cam Dinunzio - Guitars, Bass
Devon Sproule - Harmony vocals
Craig Harmon - Electric piano
Chris Lancaster - Cello
David Lowery - Bass on "Solipsist"
Mike Brown - Bass on "Reasons to Fall"
Mark Goldstein - Bass on "Something Better Than This"
Stuart Gunter - Drums on "Something Better Than This"
Karmen Buttler - Harmony vocals, Acoustic Guitar on "Something Better Than This"
Brian Hoffa - Engineer on "Something Better Than This"
Adam Lasus - Additional mix engineering on "My Evil Twin", "The Dragon", and "Mechanical"

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Lauren Hoffman Los Angeles, California

music is exceptionally useful for communicating the nuance and complexity of the human experience because it is an emotional language, we process and respond to it in a different way than thoughts, beyond the limits of linguistics. that's why it's special and mysterious and i love it. that's why i write and sing and play instruments and make records. that's why i share my songs with you. ... more

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