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White Sheets (Crush Mix)
03:05
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White sheets
I can't believe I'm
Still asleep, still beneath
He's come to rest
Head and heart
He's on my chest
He falls so hard
I'm crushed - it's what I asked for
Some kind of weight to hold me down and
I'm lost - I'm in his mouth
Cradled by his sounds
Soft light
A perfect dawn
A moment held, a moment gone
And all day
This will be my
Secret place
Where I can taste him
Long gone, it's what I asked for
Some kind of space to float around and
Eyes wide, I am awake now
Cursed by the freedom that I've found
I'll come when you least expect it
Close your eyes you won't regret this
Love comes when you least expect it
Warm night
A silent breeze
And I'm up against the wall
Strong hands
And hips to hold me
Still I'm afraid that I will fall
I'm crushed - it's what I asked for
Some kind of weight to hold me down
I'm lost - I'm in his mouth
Cradled by his sounds
I'll come when you least expect it,
Close your eyes you won't regret this
Love comes when you least expect it
Close your eyes you won't regret this
Love comes when you least expect it
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I spent a twisted night without sleep
Wondering
Where did I go wrong
How did I lose you?
I spend my listless life
I wait here
Wondering
Where did I go wrong
How did I lose you?
There was a time when I believed in something better than this
There was a time when I still dreamed
All I do now is wish
There was a time when I believed in something better than this
There was a time when I still dreamed
All I do now is wish
I left the scream inside my mouth
Pushed it down
How did I go wrong
Where did I lose you?
And god knows I know I could die here
Just lie here just lie here just lie here
How can I go on
Now that I’ve lost you?
There was a time when I believed in something better than this
There was a time when I still dreamed
All I do now is wish
There was a time when I believed in something better than this
There was a time when I still dreamed
All I do now is wish
Dreams were made for waking and I’m making up my bed
Daylight is for waiting and there’s seven hours left
There was a time when I believed in something better than this
There was a time when I still dreamed
All I do now is wish
There was a time when I believed in something better than this
There was a time when I still dreamed
All I do now is wish
I believed
I believed
I believed
I believed
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Don't wanna go where they are cruel and cold
Turning me into stone, making me dry
Give me this warmth, a sunbeam to live in
A window to look out of...
Misery blooms on the stem of suppression
The world that you see is the one you believe
Sleeping in poppies, lost in the forest
Out of the sky, into the sea
Disappear under here, pulled by the tide
Give me an island, I am an island
Don't wanna go where they pull out the mold
Casting me out of clay, making me dry
Give me this warmth, a sunbeam to live in
A window to look out of...
Shut out the sights
And pull tight the sheets
They live in the dark and their faces you see
By a sliver of light, through a cracked-open door…
Castles and kings await you my sweet
Dragons will fly you
Far, far from here
Where the concrete enfolds you
And they mould you of steel
Out of the sky, into the sea
Disappear under here, pulled by the tide
Give me an island, I am an island
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You're a little bit damaged
I'm a sucker for that
I wanna take you in my hands
Wanna bring you back
You're a little bit damaged
I'm a sucker for that
I want to fill up the spaces
Be everything you lack
You're a little bit jaded
And you're closing the door
And all the you felt then
You don't feel it anymore
I'm the picture that's faded,
I'm the love you don't trust
Take the girl out from under glass
And she'll always want to much
I know
You're just
Broken
I know
You're just
Broken
You're just
Broken
You're a little bit damaged
I'm a sucker for that
So in the moment I lost you
I wanted you back
But that's a feeling that's faded
And I'm closing the door
And all that I felt then
I don't feel it anymore
I know
You're just
Broken
I know
You're just
Broken
You're just
Broken
You're just
Broken
You're just
Broken
You're just
Broken
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We’re on a wire but it’s better than drowning
And I don’t care if I fall
'Cause I’ve never been higher
Everything's changing
But I don’t care for sameness
'Cause safety makes graves
Of the fearful I find
A ride on a wave
A home on a wind-blown cloud
Make your body loud
For me
Could you be safe in my arms
And scared at the same time
Running towards and away
’Til you’re standing still
The mystery’s calling
Come if you dare
And find what is there when you tear down the walls
No you’re gonna wait til the moment is certain
While I’ve been out searching for reasons to fall
Hard is the ground
You’re wrapping your arms around
Could you be safe in my arms
And scared at the same time
Running towards and away
’Til you’re standing still
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She's never on my side
She competes just for fun
But I'll never win no matter how fast I run
She always seems so sure
But she's full of shit and she's making me like her
No it doesn't matter where I go
She's the one who's in control
And I'll never be alone I know
Oh and if you're looking for my soul
She traded that old thing in years ago
She doesn't let me speak to anyone else
She's forcing me to live out this life by myself
She's got a wicked tongue
She's a bitch and she'll turn me into one
No it doesn't matter where I go
She's the one who's in control
And I'll never be alone I know
Oh and if you're looking for my soul
She traded that old thing in years ago
I doesn't matter where I fuckin go
She's the one who's in control
But if I close my eyes she'll disappear
She'll still whisper in my ear
It's her voice I've come to fear but she's still here
Taking count and keeping score
I'm the girl she can't adore
If I close my eyes she'll disappear
She'll still whisper in my ear
It's her voice I've come to fear but she's still here
Taking count and keeping score
I'm the girl she can't adore
If I close my eyes she'll disappear
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Well you don't fit in, thank god
But you don't know what you've got
So you try to be like them, but you're not
And you're almost dead, almost dead
You're almost dead
And I wish I could hang out up in the sky
And be the light to shine you home
So I'll write another song about the darkness
and how you're not alone
So you try to find a hole
Deep enough to lie in
There's comfort in the cold, I know
When you're almost dead, almost dead
When you're almost dead
And I wish I could hang out up in the sky
And be the light to shine you home
So I'll write another song about the darkness
and how you're not alone
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Sleepwalking
I'm running
On automatic
Like prozac girl
Indifferent
Nothing much matters
What is this clinging to images sacred?
No longer making love
Just getting naked
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
As if it's all in you
Hand to hold
Raison d'être
Romantic notion
Like beautiful swimming in love like an ocean
What is this clinging to images sacred?
No longer making love
Just getting naked
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
As if it's all in you
And I've got to crawl out of this whole
I've got to crawl out of this whole
I've got to crawl out of this whole
What is love
I want to feel
Something real
Like a car crash
When I land
I will be shaken
Awakened
To now
Like a flash
In a dream of the waking world
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
Why am I still
Holding on
To a love gone wrong?
Why am I still
Holding on?
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Like a master of disguise in a torn-up old dress
I've been hiding in plain sight and making a mess
Bring me back my heart
This is it
I'm ready for the cure
I am sick of being sick
Come to my senses and
Feel the things I never felt
I can't pretend this is
Anything but love itself
So don't go tonight
Stay make everything all right
Like a veteran of war, haunted by day
I've been trying to ignore what never goes away
Visions in my head, blind as I've been
Try to shut them out but they already got in
Come to my senses and
Feel the things I never felt
I can't pretend this is
Anything but love itself
So don't go tonight
Stay make everything all right
Something in my chest, a sound I've never heard
I've been living in my head, always the same words
Save me from my self, this is my disease
Ringing in my ears and body in deep-freeze
Come to my senses and
Feel the things I never felt
I can't pretend this is
Anything but love itself
So don't go tonight
Stay make everything all right
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You breath fire
To burn the world
And such teeth
"The better to eat you with, my girl"
You can fly
Take me with you
Yeah you're wild
And you know not what you do
I'm in love with a dragon put my hand in the flame
I know I should have known better but I did it again
I'm in love with a dragon it's the curse of my life
to be the lover of a monster I'm his dutiful wife
Since I first saw you in the sky
I could feel you in my lungs
Since I was a child
I've had blisters on my tongue
Oh yeah if you're so bad why don't you take it all
Why don't you do me in finally make me fall
You're a tease
I'm a flirt
Oh baby please
Make it hurt
I'm in love with a dragon put my hand in the flame
I know I should have known better but I did it again
I'm in love with a dragon it's the curse of my life
to be the lover of a monster I'm his dutiful wife
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Baby put a record on
I've been waiting all night long to touch you
Standing in my pretty dress
If you asked me I'd say yes
So take it off
Love, turn out the light
And hold me like tomorrow might not come
Fall upon my breast and let
Your fever
find its death against my skin
And slowly as the summer breeze and
Silent as the stars
This night is ours
Baby, tell me everything, with your hands
You know we don't need words
You talk about forever with you fingers
But you know I'm already yours
Already yours
And slowly as the summer breeze and
Silent as the stars
This night is ours
And sometime when I'm asleep
You'll curl up next to me
Thinking "
I know what I'm doing here"
Soon the sun will come to part
The curtains of the night,
And slowly as the summer breeze and
Silent as the stars
This night is ours
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Here in the dark
Dizzy from the stars that light your face
The winter makes you shake
Let me be the warm place
'Cause I burn with the fire of a lifetime waiting for you
If nobody sees us, do we exist?
Don’t ever fall in love with a solipsist.
If I'm falling to pieces, can he make me whole?
If nobody sees me break can I fix it on my own?
You burn
Through the film
In shades of the sunrise
And I am the moon
Ablaze in the first light
You burn
Through the film
In shades of the sunrise
And I am the moon
Ablaze in the first light
I’ve been watching their faces
I’ve seen through their eyes
Wandered through places
Where the desperate tell their lies
And they pass like an ocean
Over my skin
I’ve been holding my breath for
Years so they won’t get in
You burn
Through the film
In shades of the sunrise
And I am the moon
Ablaze in the first light
You burn
Through the film
In shades of the sunrise
And I am the moon
Ablaze in the first light
Ablaze in the first light
Ablaze in the first light
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There’s a room in my house where I stumble
Over a memory
There’s a light in the night and I wonder
If you’ve come back for me
Well it’s a little too late to say sorry
But don’t be so hard on me
Ghost, you know
I can’t go back
Come like a whisper in silence
A brush on my skin
A shadow that flies by door
I’m wanting more
Well it’s a little too late to say sorry
But don’t be so hard on me
Ghost, you know
I can’t go back
Like a song in my ear you are near me
Here like a time machine
Ghost you keep pulling me back
If you’ve been here all the while
Watching me drift by and by
Waiting for something to fill me up
Ghost, close your eyes
I can silence the voice in my head
And hear you instead
Whisper and sing for me again
Rise from the dead
Well it’s a little too late to say sorry
But don’t be so hard on me
Ghost, you know
I can’t go back
Like a song in my ear you are near me
Here like a time machine
Ghost you keep pulling me back
Sometimes you lose everything
Or gave it away well it’s hard to say now
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Heartbeat that's lost in the creaking of steel
Teaching and training yourself not to feel
Here is what I see
Human turning into machine
And you're safe in those places where no-one can go
Locked-up and shuttered in it's total control
And I know how it feels
'Cause I lived there for years
But you try and you'll see
It's beautiful to be free
I wasn't born with a metal breast plate
You grow your protection and you learn how to hate
And I'm calling the bluff
I know you better
You aren¹t so tough
Are you inanimate
Do you rely
On manipulation
So you'll look alive
Are you automatic
What turns you on
Buttons and switches
Or lovers and songs
Lover, I've been wasting my time
Riddling, puzzling, searching your eyes
When all I can see
It's turbines and pistons where a man used to be
Am I just not getting it
Is this revolution
A mechanical revolution
Are you dictating your final solution
A mechanical revolution
Am I just not getting it
Is this evolution
A mechanical revolution
Are you dictating your final solution
A mechanical revolution
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15. |
Joshua (Roller Rink Mix)
03:10
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Whenever I fall
Taking all the chances I can
I put my world in your command
I'm back in the dark
And far from taking that path
Again, to where we...
Shine in the face of all that's to come
Saying'My love, this song is for you'
I lie in the space of daydreams gone wrong
Thinking 'My love, what happened to you?'
And standing up tall, taller
Learning my glow
Living in light I made on my own
You do as you please, go be
A slave to your mind
All of the while, I'll be
Holding this moment
Remember me when we'd...
Shine in the face of all that's to come
Saying'My love, this song is for you'
I lie in the space of daydreams gone wrong
Thinking 'My love, what happened to you?'
Love isn't thought, and it's not just a place to call home
Love isn't pain, or a face you can own
Love isn't touch, not the crutch of a shoulder to lean on
You're gone, but it's not
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You could call it blindness
But surely I just didn't want to know
The reasons behind this
Whatever moved me to go
'Cause if love leaves...
Can you truly say it was ever love at all?
I've always believed love lasts
Long after we fall
Now my life is simple
Now I have nothing left to lose
And I'm tired of living
Between dreaming and the blues
And if it's all an illusion
Please let me see the truth
I am ready for everything
I am ready for you
Now these rooms are empty
But I know I'm not the only lonely one
Well it's no consolation
To know we're all yearning for someone
And crossing the oceans
Of differences
Just to be recognized
For a moment
Just to feel alive
And it might look like comfort
But truly it's the saddest thing I know
To be held by a stranger
When my heart still has no home
So I'll wait forever... starting now
'Cause it's better to be alone
And be faithful
I know you'll take me home
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Lauren Hoffman Los Angeles, California
music is exceptionally useful for communicating the nuance and complexity of the human experience because it is an emotional language, we process and respond to it in a different way than thoughts, beyond the limits of linguistics. that's why it's special and mysterious and i love it. that's why i write and sing and play instruments and make records. that's why i share my songs with you. ... more
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